Here are some more thoughts from my pindicked subby…
Is That Really All There Is?
Trying To Mask Her Disappointment
I am sure some guys might hear “oh wow” or “my goodness” or something he can interpret as flattering. She’s impressed. There is nothing we’d rather do than impress her. But to a guy who is less endowed, or even smallish – he may hear something else. It may not be a “you’re so tiny” – or something “in your face”. In my case it was much more subtle things. I suspect that may be true of others. In some cases – no words at all would make you worry a bit. Why wasn’t she saying anything? The truth is, a smaller guy simply never hears that “wow”! He hears other things – even if subtle.
Why Be Subtle
Again, Ms. Delia isn’t subtle! “Oh, Wow!” or “My Goodness!” coming from me is going to be mixed with gales of laughter – followed by “Is that really your penis?” I know, she’s being subtle to try and spare your feelings, to try and make you think you’re really not “smallish”. It’s not “small-ish”, it small, tiny, a nub! So what happened when this micro-penis subby got naked in front of a real woman?
I Like Small Guys!
I for example recall one early date/girlfriend “viewing” for the first time and stating a sort of girlish and emphatic “I like small guys”! She went on to add “I really do – you guys are so agreeable and easy to get along with”. That hit me like a lightning rod – “agreeable”. She had said it sort of like it was a “good thing” but I am sure my voice went silent and my eyes probably went to the floor. It felt like she was the boss or at least in charge. I am not sure – maybe that is where submissiveness began – it was not the big strong macho “take charge” way that I could get female attention – it was by being “agreeable”. I think that sank way in – long before I realized.
Agreeable – Well, That’s One Way To Put It
What this pencil dicked subby realized was that he was submissive. In that moment he had the epiphany that every small penised guy realizes sooner or later. With that swizzle stick, you’re never going to be the alpha male, and a beta male’s only chance with a sexy, powerful woman is to accede to her every demand. She’s going to find a big, thick cock to fill her up – so you’d better learn to do other things to please her – body worship, pussy worship, becoming her tease toy, maybe even…gasp…fluffing her lovers! It’s really your only hope.
Next week – SPH doesn’t have to be hard-core….
I have sometimes felt it makes it worse – if she says nothing. It would (almost) be better if she would just say what she thought. If you know and she knows and she says nothing it sort of makes you feel like she is “being polite”, ugh.
One thing that has always gotten my attention is if a female uses certain words when she speaks to you – maybe I am imagining it – words like “sweetie” or “pumpkin” or “darling” – used by a female who is not your girlfriend – sometimes make me feel or at least wonder if she is thinking of me as not so alpha – or not-so-endowed. I know those can be just affectionate terms between man and woman. But I also feel sometimes women can employ them with guys who they don’t think or so manly? Am I making any sense?
jim –
It makes total sense! Of course those pet names are meant to emasculate you. If you just take them as you do, it proves you are a beta male, not an Alpha!
But…you knew that already 🙂
I guess part of what I wonder is am I just taking those names/words that way or are they truly meant that way?! Maybe some of both?
I would say they are meant to go together!! 🙂 Teeny and Tiny always work well in the same sentence as small penis.