A Year Without Orgasm
Meet My Chastity Slave, e
I am very lucky to have a wonderful submissive, e, who has undergone “chastity by will” and without even planning for it has done over a year without orgasm. First, you may be wondering, what is “chastity by will”? Well, it simply means that e never really asked for a formal chastity contract, and I never demanded it of him. As we played throughout the year, I just continued to say NO to orgasms. My e remained chaste because as time wore on, my teasing and edging of him caused quite a revelation for him which I just loved. But let’s hear him tell it…
e Is Really Also My Edging Slave
Already, time flies, we have reached the end of October and I have now been more than one year without an orgasm…it feels strange as if I would have known about that on day 1, I would have panicked as the idea of not cumming for a whole year would have been FRIGHTENING…
But now that I find myself at the other end… after not having experienced an orgasm in more than a year, I feel no panic and a certain pride in having been able to “survive” for so long. I still feel the urge to ejaculate… that has not changed… but what I am saying is that the absence of orgasm is not as difficult to endure.
I have discovered, throughout the year, through multiple edging sessions, either before you or in solo, with your excellent masturbation guidance through various teases, that the edge in itself is very close to the orgasm with the difference that once the edge has faded away, I am immediately ready to experience another one which would not be the case with an orgasm.
Furthermore, I have discovered that after an edging session, the feeling is like I am releasing all the tension that has built-up… not as satisfying as an orgasm but the feeling is unique… still, the craving to stroke and edge does not fade away… only the tension that had built-up… and being able to release that tension has been of a HUGE help in my being able to survive over a year without an orgasm.
To me, being your slave within a genuine M/s connection is far more important than being able to achieve an orgasm once here and there…
This Is One Way To Please Your Mistress
This reflection makes me smile. Knowing that the year of no orgasms was not planned makes this reflection even more special! If you find yourself in chastity or simply denied by your Mistress, read this reflection, and know deep down, you CAN do it…and that the edge can be just as good as an orgasm!
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Wow! Congrats to “E” on his accomplishment. I can’t think of a better Domme to experience this journey with then Ms Delia. I would love to someday myself be able to accomplish the same thing.
Great accomplishment! I do agree!
Andy, you could aspire to get to this place too!
Congratulations, e! That is very special. And whether intentional or not it deserves recognition all the same. I am sure there were rough patches, but something kept you motivated to tough it out in chastity. Whether it was sheer devotion to your Mistress or the desire to reach each milestone, you did it! Not many can say the same.
Dear, Mistress,
Thank You for this post.
i am proud, Mistress, to be Your slave and i stand proud to be given the privilege to be known as Your slave, Mistress and this year without an orgasm can be seen as a true tangible demonstration of my surrendering to You.
This was and still is very real…
You have teased and edged me on a continuous basis, throughout the year, leaving me with little to no rest…
The yearning was permanent…
And yet, You have never allowed an orgasm…
While the year was progressing, i realized that the chances that i was to be granted an orgasm were decreasing to a point where it became clear in my mind that the one year target was too tempting, for You and… i must admit, for me as well…
At a certain point, i became quite curious as to how it would feel to be denied further…
And now that W/we have crossed the one year milestone, now that W/we have reached 14 months and a few days, i wonder how long You will deny me further…
As You said, this is chastity by will or if i can say, chastity by Your Will…
And i wish to publicly thank You for it… thank You for the outstanding opportunity You give me to please You…
My Fate is to obey You, Mistress and endure, no less, no more, whatever comes with it… as a tangible pledge of my surrendering to You…
i am blessed, Mistress and although the ACHE is so often, so strong… i will not ask, i will not beg for relief…
i am Your slave and i will do as You deem appropriate.
It is very often a true torment to be teased and edged… to be ultimately denied…
Sometimes, i become so sensitive… and get so close… that i can almost experience the orgasm even if i do not get to cum…
It is like cumming without cumming and the beauty is that it can be repeated through… long teasing… full and intense edging… to just when i fear that i could fail… the line is so thin… like the protective shield of an ultra sensitive condom… it is there but You can barely feel that it is… and this is when the edge feels like the orgasm… but it is not… W/we know that…
To be honest, Mistress, my biggest FEAR, now, is to accidentally cum… while being put to work/test…
i am getting more and more sensitive from the continuous teasing and denial…
But know that i will always behave to the best of my ability so as to not reach such an outcome unless, of course, this would be what You would expect of me…
This Journey into DENIAL is unbelievably amazing… and although it involves a great deal of struggling with the ACHE, it is an extraordinary Journey into a TRUE experience of submission… that brings me closer to You, Mistress, into O/our very own M/s connection…
Thank You, Mistress,
i am confident that You will know what to do next…
i am Your devoted slave
e{MD}
Oh, e!
Your denial and chastity journal certainly is something special!! And lose that FEAR!! I KNOW you will not accidentally cum. You have done SO well. It will be ok.
On to who knows how long!
Mistress
Thank you Andy and thank You, Mistress Alexis, for Your kind words.
You are right, Mistress Alexis, devotion to my Mistress was of HUGE help in my staying on the right side of the fence while having spent so much time climbing to the top of that fence either by myself with and within Her authorized parameters or directly before Her while She was watching…
And thank You, Mistress for the confidence You demonstrate in me…
It is also of HUGE help in my dealing/progressing with the “situation”…
i am Your devoted slave
e{MD}
This is a wonderful account of a chastity slave’s devotion. I think it says quite a lot that e would just keep edging and not cum over a whole year. I do have one edger who loves the feeling of being on the edge. It leaves him euphoric and breathless.
This is wonderful. I am fantasizing a lot these days how it would be to spend 2017 without an orgasm for a Lady.
If you work hard and are devoted to Mistress, I think you will be able to endure a year without orgasms!